Chapter 4

I was transferred to a more comfortable room. I gained some weight and was constantly dreaming. Mostly about Julia. I was also allowed to write on a slate. It was foolish of me to appose the party, I tried to believe in their teachings. I wrote their slogans on my slate in an attempt to convince myself their teaching are correct. I realized later I still deeply wanted to continue hating the party and screamed Julia's name as loud as possibly many time. I knew this would probably lead to torture, but I didn't care.